October 29, 2008

Day FortyThree.

I am so desperate for some type of change that it's driving me insane.
I am so desperate to know that what I have is constant and I still have something left to give.
Because I am tired of looking in the mirror and willing myself to see something I'm not.
And I am so sick of putting on a happy face and playing nice s0 I won't offend people who don't know or care about me.
I don't want to be the cause of your disappointment, embarrassment, disgust, frustration,
resentment..
anymore.

October 28, 2008

Day FortyTwo.

You have to be willing to take a risk and lose everything,

If you ever want to gain anything.

October 27, 2008

Day FortyOne.

Sluttyslutslutsluttyslutslutsluttyslut.

Usually, I have this very stylized way of writing,
But I just don't really feel like writing this post like that.
I saw one of my secrets on the post secret myspace today!
I would've posted it in my post secret post.
But it's pretty embarrassing so I didn't.

If you are a certain ignorant asshole,
Here are some activities you might like to try today:
  • Choking to death on your own saliva.
  • Burning your face off with some lighter fluid.
  • Running into a brick wall.
If you are anyone else,
Here are some other activities you might want to try:
  • Write me a letter.
  • Send a postcard to postsecret.com
  • Post a sentence on onesentence.org
  • Make a photoblog and be my photoblog friend.
  • Draw me a picture.
  • Maybe post a comment!
  • Maybe not post a comment, and just lurk away.
  • Make your own blog!

Okay, I think I'm done.
(L)

Day Forty.


I don't want to wait anymore

Day ThirtyNine.

I'm really behind.
My bad.

The thing I love about being scared,
Is how your body reacts to it.
Like.
How the hair on the back of your neck stands on end.
And how your heart rate seems to triple.
Andn how you can almost feel the blood rushing through your veins.
I just love the adrenaline rush,
And the atmosphere,
And all the excuses to be close to you.

October 25, 2008

Day ThirtyEight.

You intoxicate me.

October 23, 2008

Day ThirtySeven.

I'm still writing you this list and I'm on number fifty-two.
In case you were wondering.